Sunday, February 18, 2007

South of the Border

After a week in Boulder, I left on Christmas Day to head down to Mexico. After stepping foot in Dhamma Giri last year, I had a very strong feeling I had to take a 20 day course as soon as my schedule permitted. First, I was thinking to go to the TSC in India in November, but I ended up going back to Costa Rica-- I was just doing far too much training on a very steep learning curve to take a hiatus at that point. So January 2007 was the first open space I had for a course, and I ended up applying to a center outside Bangkok, since it was fairly established and had cells. As it turned out, they lost my application and by the time it was found, the plane fare was too expensive. Luckily, there was one other 20 day scheduled during this time, in Mexico... so I had my status transferred to here and used miles to get the tickets.

On a very cold (and early!) Colorado morning still recovering from the blizzard, I waited for the airport bus. It was to be a 45-60 ride, possibly slower with the icy roads, possibly faster with little traffic. As it turned out, a thousand other Boulderites had the same bright idea I did that traveling on Xmas Day should be a light travel day. It took about 60 minutes of making the stops, loading passengers and luggage, before we even got on the freeway towards DIA, and that carefully calculated cup of chai I had before leaving was about to explode! The airport was in even worse condition. Luckily I had a 1st class voucher and managed to avoid all the normal ticket and security lines to check in. What would have had me barely making it to the gate in time left me instead with about 2 hours to spare! So, after a couple of flights later via LAX and some movies, I found myself in the Mexico City airport, scrambling to find signs for the Pullman bus to Cuernavaca. Some more lines and waits and a bus ride away, then a night taxi to my hotel for a light sleep.

The following morning, I met up with a Mexican girl who promised a ride to the center. Her dad was driving and another Mexican was there from the city (who had left her first course mid-way through when her boyfriend appeared through the forest and demanded they leave instantly). I got my first look at the country as we drove through slums and forests, her father chain-smoking during the several hour ride and seeming to take the road like a NASCAR driver bent on making record time. His daughter was taking her first course. She'd read the Art of Living and signed up six months in advance. She was raised Catholic and her father had serious concerns with her taking the course, but she had read the literature and felt confident that the only conversion that would take place here was “the conversion from misery to happiness.” As we arrived at the center and her dad prepared for the ride home, she gave him a long letter she had written explaining her reasons for wanting to attend. What a surprise then when I'd find out that she left at 6.00 a.m. the next day, evidently scared off by the opening formalities of taking refuge... Here is a shot of the kitchen where I was to spend the following ten days in Dhamma service:


The course was about 2-3 hours late in getting started. Part of this had to do with the fact that Dhamma seemed to run on Mexican time here (group sittings usually started ten minutes late as well), and part of the fact was due to a registration glitch in the computer that planned on 60 students, but somehow sent out 75 letters of acceptance. By the time the course got of the ground, every single meditation cushion, blanket, mattress, etc. was in use. And this meant more had to be bought, because at nights and in the morning it was COLD! There was no indoor heating anywhere and the site was at 7000 feet, so temperatures did dip. The first few days especially were unbelievable. I had every piece of clothing I brought with me on at once. I heard that several years ago, before the Dhamma Hall was built, they had a huge tent constructed, and it was actually colder in here than out... some students told me that stepping inside it was like walking inside a refrigerator, and students would have to put separate blankets on each part of their body! Here is a nice view of the center, seen from the local-and-animal path just outside the barbed wire fence:



Apparently, several years ago a very wealthy Mexican banker (from the Bank of Mexico, actually) took a course. Although he didn't complete it, he wanted to make a donation to the trust. He offered a large plot of land for a center and all the money they needed to build the various rooms and halls. The trust refused, on the basis that they are only able to take money from old students. The banker had a lot of ego and was upset that anyone would refuse him, but the trust was unwavering. Eventually the banker showed them alright: he got his wife to take a full ten day course, and then the trust had no choice but to accept this offer. And that's the story how Dhamma Makaranda exists today! (Actually, someone else has already given land for a second site in Veracruz, but the trust is waiting to develop the server base there before expanding) In the past few years they have had trouble getting servers here in Makaranda, so they decided to hire a local woman, Doña Mari, to be in charge of cooking lunches. She also ended up taking a course (and brought much of her family with her!), and so would come to sit in the hall at 8 am and then help us in the kitchen until 1 pm. She was probably the main reason this ten day service went so smoothly: she just told people what she needed chopped or measured or soaked and we did it. She was the one it all together in large amounts and had it all magically ready to go every day at 10:55 am. It really took away any one of us needing to have much stress in making sure we were staying on schedule.

The food itself was just wonderful... about as ideal as any meditator could hope for. Especially ironic considering that “Mexican Day” in the US Vipassana centers is one of the more challenging meals, with nothing served except very large burrito makings-- nothing like that here. Very light food, well balanced, with delicious soups and fruit juice prepared daily. The guacamole was perhaps the most hazardous as far as enticing craving, although followed closely by the cactus, pozole, and fresh blue-corn tortillas. Here is a picture of our serving crew as the course ended:


After the course ended, a number of us drove out to the nearby resort town of Valle de Bravo. Everyone had a good laugh that after a couple week this was my first “glance” of Mexico... as I responded, “I've already seen the best and most important part!” We walked through the local markets and had some tea on a boat-restaurant. I also had about 30 minutes to read all my email from the past 2 weeks and figure out what I needed the send to cover the upcoming three. The following evening after Day 11 morning was to be the Day 0 of the 20 day. As Richard told me (who had also served the 10 day with me), “so it's real now!” And just hours before the course began, I happened to check my visa stamp from the airport, and a shock arose when I found they had only given me 30 days entry, not the 90 I'd expected to have! What to do, I kind of rambled nervously to the site managers and teacher, who told me they'd make some calls and I'd worry about it later. The teacher said I wouldn't get thrown in jail for it, and I figured if this was the worse Mara could do, it wasn't going to keep me from completing the 20.

There were only 7 total students for the course, which was quite a contrast to the chaos and noise from the last ten days! They converted some of the residences for use as cells and wired speakers to the dorms for the morning and group sittings. In a longer course, the only sitting you are required to be in the hall for is the 6-7 pm. They also puts labels on the sinks, showers, bathrooms, and eating places. This ended up being quite helpful: in 20 days I found I had a greater level of sensitivity within the mind, and being in spaces that only I was using was conducive to the meditative experience. Here is a picture of my seat in the dining hall:


As I wrote, the town was a quite small, dusty, typical Mexican one, though very noisy. At daybreak the sounds of animals came in surround-sound symphony: dogs barking the news, chickens greeting the sun, and the very loud and sorrowful donkey howling from the distance. A loudspeaker also blared out in the early mornings and evenings announcing the town news. As the day wore on, the nearby paths got their use from the villagers. I was mostly successful following the directions and not raising my eyes much, but it was a challenge as I heard a flock of baaa-ing sheep pass by as youngsters yelled at each other, a horde of horses galloped by, or a burro carrying sticks walked through with an old man singing. The first ten days of the course went by quite fast. There were a number of storms but I think I was very determined to be there and so had a strong work ethic. I remember feeling that after just two days, it felt like about Day 8 or so! The last few days of the course I found myself being very agitated and kind of impatient for it to end-- my strongest sankhara by far in the past few years, which even comes out in the final hours of a full day sit. After the course ended, I was trying to figure out whether I wanted to go to Valle de Bravo and then on to Mexico City by myself after a couple days, or straight to the city with a ride from a server, but have to deal with the big bad city after so many days of calm. As I tossing this around in my mind, an Argentinian student found out my flight was leaving after a few days and demanded I come to see her town. She went on to tell me how beautiful it was and the other meditators began to second it, but I was already sold! It sounded like the perfect transition back the householder's life. So we drove a few hours down to Mexico City, where we had some tea at the home of one student, and then Susana's (the Argentinian) friends picked us up and drove us about 2 hours to Tepoztlan. She lived in a beautiful stone house on a raised hill from the town. Here is a picture of the valley the town is in, taken on a hike I did with her friend Jorge:


I spent a couple days sorting through emails and trying to bring my mind to focus on the work stuff. I was supposed to be on my way to Chicago, but the course was having problems filling up, so it looked like I might be coming back to Mexico to do another course in Veracruz. We took a walk into town the first day but it was rather overwhelming for both of us. I found out Susana's son Gonzalo is best friends with Karim, a fellow I'd met at Dhamma Giri last year. At the house we didn't do much... hung around having some very good food and more fresh juice (Susana owned a health food store in town) and I gave up to my craving by indulging in a couple movies. 20 days-- just a drop in the bucket, really, and so many many more drops are needed...
It was after a couple days that I went on a hike with her friend Jorge. He was a very interesting sort of guy who'd lived in the area all his life and knew all kinds of “magical” places hidden in the mountains that no other guide knew about. He had left Mexico twice... once to spontaneously drive an old jalopy south until he ended up in Peru's Lake Titikaka, where he asked himself, “what am I doing here” and drove back to Mexico; and a second time in, of all places, Armenia, where as a young socialist he went as part of a small delegation. “What a wonderful man he was,” he said of the president. After a month at the center I was happy to get out for a walk but leary of doing anything much more, and both Jorge and Susana assured me it would be a very calm, relaxing jaunt down the mountain as different places were pointed out. One of these places was the famous Aztec temple, which we hiked to... here it is when it was still off in the distance:

As it turned out we needed to hike quite a bit up the mountain before we could go down. Jorge didn't know exactly which trail was best so we went off in brush, then found ourselves deep in brush, attempting several rather sketchy and steep climbs where we had to grab onto some loosely rooted trees to hoist ourselves up. Eventually we reached a place where going down was going to be just as precarious and taxing as going up was, and neither option appeared to be very pleasant. I think it was at this time when Jorge pointed to some nearby black birds, very large, and laughed. “I don't know why they are there. They only come when death is around. This is very funny.” Although it didn't seem too funny to me! After another steep ascent we found ourselves just about ten feet from the top, with only one small ledge to negotiate. Jorge went first and by this time I found my muscles a little more shaky than was comfortable. The holds were a distance enough a part that they only way up was to lunge from one to the next, with the hope that the grip, the aim, and the hold would all be secure. If not, it was some ways down. Luckily, it was not a day for the birds and I got to see quite the few off the beaten track-- though with no real Dhammic benefit to speak of, I don't know if I'd choose to do it again. Here are some pictures of some very curious animals I saw outside the temple entrance:


The day before my plane flight I took the bus into Mexico City and suffered through more than half of a very bad Jamie Foxx comedy. The previous day I'd read in an English newspaper that a very large strike was set to take place in the downtown against rising tortilla prices. More than just the tortillas though, it was really a protest against the recently elected conservative president, an election that had unbelievable amounts of wide-spread fraud and even possible US involvement (think about it, the one Latin American election that didn't go far left). As an expatriate Canadian explained to me at the center, Mexico is a poor country, and it is totally impossible to think they'd elect someone so conservative. When I got to the bus station, I decided I had too many bags to try the subway, so I picked up some pirated DVDs and found a taxi, hoping to make it close to the hotel. The driver told me he might not be able to get through, but luckily I was early enough that the streets weren't yet closed off. As I settled into my hotel and took a stroll around the area, the protest grew and grew in size. Here is one picture:


To my delight I found a vegetarian restaurant and sat outside. A side street was being used for the protests, and for the one hour I was sitting there the line of people and vehicles never stopped. Trucks with loudspeakers (and even bands) went blaring by, people chanting and yelling and carrying signs (the most amusing was of Lenin, Marx, Engels, and Stalin... Stalin!!!! What in the world!?!?), John Deere tractors and Indians in traditional dress. There were even helicopters circling, here is one picture I took:


And riot cops stationed all over, as you can see in this picture. Though most of the ones I saw looked pretty bored. They were chatting to each other or messing around with their cell phones. A lot seemed to keep making trips to various 7-11s and were always munching or snacking on some junk food. The next day on the airplane, I read a big article about the protest in the New York Times. It estimated that tens of thousands marched together, including student groups, farm workers, and indigenous peoples. They also mentioned that later that evening in the Zocalo (see photo below), Mexico's “real” president (that is, the one who was actually elected) spoke...


I woke up the next morning at 4 am not feeling so well. After a couple hours, it was more than apparent that Montezuma was surely taking his revenge on me. Besides for a cold while serving, I'd been in fine health the previous 5 weeks, and I think the last few hours had made me a little more cocky that I needed to be. I don't know what did it-- orange juice in the Zocalo, ice cubes in an Italian soda, or the last meal of guacamole... but it was there. Without the unpleasant details of my stomach being emptied through its various channels, I got in a taxi at 7 am, telling the driver about the small plastic bag I was carrying with me “for emergencies.” Overstaying my visa wasn't a concern... as I was getting checked in, I huddled over the counter and asked her to “please hurry” so I could run to a bathroom... there was no time to look at dates (but it wasn't intentional, I only realized this later-- I actually had to go back to her because I had no idea what she had told me about where to go). By the time I reached DC my stomach was pretty well emptied, but I wasn't taking any chances, so water was the only thing I was putting in it. The lines were horrendous everywhere and I tried to plead with the officials to let me cut on the true caveat that I might pass out otherwise, but was usually without much success. By the time I flew to Colorado I was running a fever and foolishly tried to follow the very complicated movie “The Prestige.” At DIA I rather hoped I was home free but had another thing coming. I was too empty-headed to remember how I had to get to Boulder... when I finally figured it out I had five minutes to get there... and just made it in time! It was a huge blizzard outside, looking like the one when I left hadn't changed at all, with snow blowing everywhere. Well, the bus was 45 minutes late so I had no choice to stand out there, weak and feverish, covered with snow for the bus to come! So I wasn't going to get off that easy. Eventually it came and after about 90 minutes of the driver mumbling to himself and announcing to anyone who'd listen, “Yep, these roads are slick, sure are slick out today, gotta drive real careful like, these roads sure are slick, you can't really tell but let me tell ya, these roads, they're slick alright...” I made it to Boulder, and to a warm house and nice fresh pot of Nepali stew....

Whew! And that's the story. So I waited around in Boulder some waiting to hear back on Chicago/Veracruz, and doing some reading on linguistics. Here's one last shot of Paul feeding the big buck who'd come to the house for food... #90 they called him, named after his big radio tag he'd gotten marked with:






Friday, February 16, 2007

Costa Rica Part II (or is it III?!)

Back in Costa Rica! Above are a picture of my friends and local El Invu English students Elizabeth and Evelyn. In a way it felt like coming to kind of home again, seeing so many friends that I had made during the summer and being in places that were immensely familiar and filled with many prior memories. It was also remarkable to see all the construction that had taken place (and was taking place during that week before the course started). A new classroom was built, along with a second story above the Rancho that consisted of a large porch area and four private rooms. Here is a picture of one of the sessions I led, with three participants in the background...

(On Day 11 of my Vipassana course in Texas, I got a ride from the center to DFW airport and walked rather bewildered around the airport for some time until finally caving into the $10 wireless fee to check email and make sure nothing was too urgent. After making it to San Jose later that night, I was met by Francis Bailey, a professor of mine at SIT, and we were driven in Pipa's van back to Invu. Spent the following week gradually coming back into the householder's world, taking a swim or two and a few drives, and getting all in order for the course)

Ok, it's back to Costa Rica so you know we have to have some bug picture in here again! Here is the first one, this little guy was on a wall... This next course starting was going to be huge: 15 participants, and 12 of them Latinos coming on US Embassy scholarships (actually, to be fair one was an Italian who has been living for some time in CR). I'd be working in a rather peculiar team with Annie (an American living in Croatia) and Elias (an Ecuadorian living in Ecuador), who were both Trainers-In-Training, and Ellen, who was the first Trainer involved in my own training in Chicago, and who would be working more to train these two than actually with the participants. So there were a lot of roles to figure out, of who does what in what way and where responsibility is laid. During the four weeks we found we did work pretty smooth together. We got along well, all worked hard, and everything was smooth. The only tricky thing was this sense of a lot of different roles going on, so sometimes it was a little confusing to tell how the negotiation should work out. Here is a picture of Ellen, Annie and I with one of the participants in the nearby hot springs town of La Fortuna: (oh, we were lucky enough to see lava coming off the volcano as we were soaking... later we heard the little specks we saw were actually boulders of lava the size of an automobile!)

It was nice to step into a course where I was in a role of increased responsibility from before. With my experiences getting used to the course, and especially getting used to the schedule in the Costa Rican style, I was able to anticipate the rhythm and help guide the participants accordingly. It was so nice to see a small payoff for all the rough spots of learning the course, and it is such a very, very steep learning curve! I still have quite a bit of growth left ahead of me though, that is for certain. This I can tell just by the fact that my meditation sittings usually end with me having the faintest ideas that there happens to be some vague sort of respiration or sensations coursing through me. It is an exhausting experience, and sometimes I feel there are only so many strategies to save and conserve energy. Not just so hard on the trainers too, the participants struggle as well with the workload! Case in point, here is a picture of a Salvadorian participant, Marisol, taking a small breather at her laptop...


Ok, so we have to have another bug shot, eh! This little guy somehow got to the bottom of the cup, how he expected to get out I'm not sure of.... so, the course came to its end, I had my usual 700 collonnes ($1.50) haircut by the woman living across the street from the school and stocked up on bags of coffee and chocolate for gifts when I was to return home. And, here is the group photo... a little nontraditional compared to what I used to in the summer courses... it was taken during the middle of the course and was by the dining room area, since the spiral scene had been turned into a classroom. Still, nice to have us all together:


I got back to Colorado and soon had to adjust myself to an enormous change in seasons! Actually, this second time in Costa Rica the temps were cooler than before. In the "summer" (they don't really use these words in the tropics) it was so continuously hot that I can't remember a single time in El Invu that I ever wore socks, shoes, or a long sleeve shirt. I had to limit my hot tea in the morning because as the noon hour approached the sweat would come in. Well, the week I spent in Boulder brought in the storm of the century. I don't know if the pictures do it justice, but most of Boulder/Denver seemed pretty well shut down. Here is a picture outside Paul and Vidya's house, and the last one is when the blizzard reached Salida. So it was some huddling around and eating good home cooked Nepali food!


Wednesday, February 14, 2007

Another Costa Rica course and then home for a spell...

After getting back from Nicaragua, I had a few days to prepare for the upcoming course. Mary and I worked on it alone, and I actually had quite a bit more responsibility of leading the course as Mary left several times for 1-2 days for things like TESOL conferences and the always exciting visits to visa offices. I was a little nervous about leading the entire day of workshops, team meetings, observations, and feedback sessions on my own, but as it turned out it was just fantastic. I loved the change of being on my own and seeing more clearly into my own strengths and challenges as a Trainer, and working with the participants to serve their learning and make decisions in the moment that I thought would be the most effective based on what point they were at and what I thought they needed. It was also a fantastic group to work with... probably my favorite yet. After one trip to the hot springs they decided it should be a normal occurrence after their papers got turned in (which left them free and happy after being stressed, and me free and happy and then stressed as I sat in the hot water thinking of all the work I had ahead of me in reading the papers!). I tried to initiate a couple in the Japanese art of soaking-- that is, to find the hottest pool and stay in long past the point that you can't talk any more and get out a hair's breath of passing out, then repeat until a good Pocari Sweat can be found. We also went “zip-lining” as a group, which basically means a kind of silly and overpriced tourist adventure where you attach yourself to a cable and slide from one tree to the next... felt kind of foolish going to such a tourist place, but was fun to do with our group nonetheless... you can see a photo hereof John Chamba from Ecuador screaming his way across the rain forest!

And as John and I also happened to be the only teetotalers in the group, here is one of my favorite photos of us enjoying the last night of practice teaching together, getting a little wacky by taking shots of Coca-Cola out of Costa Rican shot glasses...



Another neat thing that happened this visit in Costa Rica was a visit to a local farm. Sometimes it feels like El Invu is out in the middle of nowhere, but in so many ways I keep finding out how connected to the “cosmopolitan” world it really is... the German couple who own the handicrafts store, the scores of American Mennonite and Quaker families who left persecution to settle in Latin America, the local farmer whose brother works as a professor in Barcelona, the teenagers who work in adventure tourism or ornamental plant gardens that put them in regular touch with Westerners, and now this... a local ginger and yuca farm that is owned by a man in Brattleboro, Vermont (amazingly no connection to SIT) and run by a Canadian. Just as we connive to cancel a workshop session when the weather is just too hot and sticky and calling us for a river swim, we decided to postpone an entire morning to visit the farm. It was a fascinating place... in addition to the vast ginger and yuca fields, they have also started an initiative to transplant dozens of medicinal herbs from all around the world that are in danger of becoming extinct, either due to destruction of the land or misinformation about the actual properties of the plant. Just in case any of the herbs are in fact lost to their native lands, they can preserve a sampling of them and at another point can reintroduce the seeds to their homeland. Our guide explained that many of the old medicine men and shamans knew much about what the different herbs did, but as the younger generation was growing up, many of them rejected their own culture in search of the wide world of opportunities beyond, particularly in the alluring West. When they started to realize the interest that many Westerners had in their tribal lands, many of them went back home and tried to learn what the elders had always known. In many cases they had an abbreviated education and ended up kind of impersonating a wise man due to their native son status, even if their knowledge was wrong. This has led to their work here on the farm we visited to start cataloging what exactly these herbs and plants are and what they do, by testing through the scientific method and publishing the results, as well as by bringing in native shaman from all over Latin and South America and recording everything they can identify. I took a lot of pictures of the insects and plants and herbs, here is just one of a twisted twig that I think turned out quite well:

And then after that, we went to one of the most amazing homes I have ever seen, priced at I think $75,000 and built by some Americans at the end of a rocky dirt road. The living room defies any description: a large open air room overlooking a rushing and cascading stream down below. Here is a shot of me giving one participant, Laura, some refreshment...

And here is something pretty neat Laura showed me... she was always good for making me remember the splendid natural environment I was in when my sankharas happened to overwhelm me with course work and responsibility... she spotted a trail of leaf cutter ants. Here is a photo I took of some...



And finally, here is our traditional end of course picture in front of the spiral:


After Costa Rica (Part I) I went back to the States and spent some time seeing family and doing work-related things in Colorado and California. Really I have put so much time into my job as Teacher Trainer that if I worked it out, I'd imagine most sweat shop laborers are making more than me. Luckily I like the work and find it will benefit me both personally as well as in professional aspects that will take me beyond the work I do on these courses. So I read a number of books related to Teacher Training and Reflective practice and put quite a bit of time organizing all of my work on the computer and modifying my lesson plans for the course. I made handouts and tried to integrate course theory with readings from the field and notes from my own experience of past workshops. I probably spent the most time trying to figure out how to deliver Shock Language and Cultural Learnings workshop based on the Burmese language and the fabric lungyi that the men wear.

I was also lucky to have a big family get-together in Central California where my grandparents celebrated their 65th Wedding Anniversary. These are some pictures of all of us as well as my grandmother with my uncle's dog...


After that I flew back to Costa Rica, via Texas, where I met with my SIT friends Wendy and Derek at their workplace UT-Arlington, just in time for the Funny Hats convention. After a couple days of swapping memories and catching up I sat a 10 day course at Dhamma Siri outside Dallas. Here are some pictures of both: